Amazing journaling....my heart goes out to you for all that you've been through. I'm so happy that you found your way through it all and came out the other side a happier person. Hugs!!
This is beautiful and your journaling is almost beyond description. Your honesty and depth of emotion is so evident, I am so glad you have survived this difficult time. Depression is an awful thing. Thank you for sharing this with us. You ARE a beautiful person.
Nothing short of amazing. I'm quite certain you have documented the words that many of us are living... myself included. Thank you for being real and for trusting this community with something so personal. God Bless!!
Wow, thank-you for sharing such a personal and emotional time...this is such a powerful page. I am so glad you found the help you needed to get you through this time, and the inner strength to continue the fight........and yes, you are a beautiful person, inside and out.
Ok, I am so teary eyed over this one!! I too had PPD, TWICE! Not a fun thing and seems so unfair at the time, but I think it has made me a stronger person. I am so glad that you found the help that you needed to overcome this battle. Beautiful journaling and thank you so much for sharing this!!!!
I love this layout! You are so awesome for writing about this!! I had PPD too. I glanced at you bio and saw that your kids are 15 mo apart...mine are 16 mo apart. Maybe that has a lot to do with the PPD!!!! :o) Anyway, your story is awesome. Your kids will really get a lot out of your openness to share such a tough time. And especially that you leaned on Christ to get you through it! He is great huh?! :o)
Just some thoughts that have been building up... Journaling: When I think about my life this past year, my heart is full of emotion and complete surrender. I have been up, I have been down, and I have just been. I’ve watched myself overcome some obstacles, and I’ve watched myself wallow in self-pity and grief. I think most importantly, I have found a self that I never knew was there. I have found a self that is angry, bitter and hurtful. Those were times I am not proud of. I have worked through some pretty tough issues that have been hidden beneath the surface for years. After being diagnosed with post-partum depression, I battled the decision to take medication, to stay on medication and on some days, whether or not to stay alive on this earth. Suicide was a daily thought for me. After agreeing to take medication, I quickly pursued the idea of getting a therapist. Michelle Dye was one of my only saving graces during this time. She brought up some very rough subjects and forced me to see me for who I am and who I can be. She stirred up emotions that I didn’t even know existed in myself. She took me through the darkest of all places and in it all, I certainly found a beautiful light. That beautiful light I saw was in radiating from me. After hours in a room a Michelle, I came to see the other side of me. A side that is beautiful, kind, loving, giving, creative, fun, happy and thoughtful. I learned so much about who I really am. About the good things that I offer this world. About the happiness I feel when I allow myself to break free and just be who I am. About the way I can feel certain emotions and allow myself to really feel them, and not to ignore them or to think that I am undeserving. In turn for all the hurt that I have felt this year, I have improved relationships that I thought were beyond saving. I have come to learn that I am allowed to see myself as a beautiful person completely undefined by how I look, what I wear, or who I associate myself with. I am grateful for a year of struggle. I am grateful for the pain I felt. I am also very grateful for my faith and trust in the Lord and his Son Jesus Christ. It is the pure love of Christ that I found deep in myself. His true love for me as one of his own carried me through many a dark hour. I am grateful for a loving family and especially a loving mother who her put her own hurt and pain on the side to make sure that I knew of her love for me. I am so grateful for the light of my children. Their sweet sprits carried me through the darkest of days. Their radiant smiles reassured me on a daily basis that I was needed in their lives that the Lord had bigger and better things planned for other then sadness. This year, I can truly say that I have found myself. The self that I am, the self that I want to be, and the self that others need me to be. When I look in the mirror on a daily basis, I no longer see just a shell of person. I see beauty, I see light, I see happiness, and I see hope. Had it not been such a year for me, I doubt that I would ever learn that inner beauty is the most stunning of all.
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