This was a VERY hard page for me to do. Not because of the lo...but because of the journaling which is inside the clear envelope. I've been using scrapping to keep my mind off of the fact that my dh is in Iraq right now, but tonight I just couldn't help myself and I found myself journaling about him, and then did the lo afterwards. As tears poured down my face I wrote...Missing you - July 9, 2005
It seems so long that youíve been gone. The days drag by without you. It seems your return will never come, December seems so far away. Although you are always in my heart, and I see a part of you everyday as I look into our childrenís eyes, I miss you.
I look at this picture every day, and I know youíve changed so much since it was taken. The things youíve seen and experienced I know have changed you, although you wonít tell me that, I hear it in your voice when I talk to you. Yet I look at this picture everyday, and Iím so proud of you for who you are and what youíre doing, not just for our country, but for our family as well.
Every night I go to bed and wish you were there to hold me, Iíve told you many times that my home is in your arms and right now without you to hold me I feel homeless. Every morning I wake to an empty pillow next to me immediately reminding me of where you are and I know I have to be strong for the girls and make it through another day without seeing you. I love you more than you will ever know and more than I could ever put into words, and right now Iím just missing you.
I decided to keep my journaling to myself for the page(which is why it is folded up in an envelope) but I thought I would share this with all of you.