Making this page has really helped me to have some peace about the miscarriage. To me, it ensures that this little life will never be forgotten. I know that over time, things like this will fade until they almost seem like they never happened. And I didn't want this life to go unnoticed.
When TJ and I found out I was pregnant, we were thrilled. At first we planned to keep it a secret until we reached the 2nd trimester, but how could we hide something so exciting? We decided we'd just wait until 8 weeks. It seemed, though, that everyone asked if we were expecting. After all, we'd been married for over a year and a half, had a house, a good job...we were ready. Naturally everyone was curious as to when we would start our family. With so many people inquiring, we couldn't keep it a secret any longer. At 6 weeks along we broke the news. Everyone was thrilled. My parents, his parents, our grandparents, all of our friends and co-workers. Everyone was happy for us.
The miscarriage was devistating, a huge letdown. All our hopes and dreams with this child were suddenly ripped away. Although we may have never had a chance to hold him in our arms, rock him to sleep, or see his little smile, there will always be a special place in our hears for our first child, Evan. It helps to know that someday we'll get to meet him up in heaven.