A little LO of Myself with my favorite colors Brown and Pink! I think I over did it on the inking of the title... The flap opens up and has another journal. =) Thanks for Stopping By.
The Journal reads:
"Quarter Life Crisis" Author Unknown. Being Twenty-something they call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." Its when you stop going along with the crowd & start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know & may not like. You start feeling insecure & wonder where you will be in a year or two, & then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish & that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, & the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, & aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job & it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job & realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom & that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing & find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life & are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable & what isn't. One minute, you are insecure & then the next, secure. You laugh & cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone & scared & confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy & you try & cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further & further away, & there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken & wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed & wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too & cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. You go through the same emotions & questions over & over, & talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future & making a life for yourself & while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! We are in our best of times & our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Inside the flap reads: I’m turning 28 this year and I have two more years left of being a part of the “Twenty Something” crowd. Right now turning twenty-eight is a pivotal time for me. I am single for the first time in a very long time. I have switch careers and have finally dropped the “law school” thing. And after traveling and living in several areas of the world, I have realized that the Bay Area is where I want to be for the rest of my life. I am also finally moving out on my own, that is living by myself without roommates, without my brother and without a man. Scared, yes, but I have never felt so liberated and free at the same time.
So who am I now? After twenty-eight years I am currently an outgoing, driven, woman who is looking to become a successful creative director for an advertising firm; who loves to please her parents and is realizing I am becoming to be more like my mom (not sure if that is a good or bad thing yet) I am a woman who is frustrated & just about to lose hope that there are no good men left, just immature boys who needs their mamas. I love to party but I know I will not and cannot party as much as I used to when I was in my early twenties. I say what’s on my mind even with the consequences, but would like to work on this. I love to be around people who make me laugh and keep it real. My friends are like my family, without them I would be lost. I would like to travel some more but I know won’t be able to until I get rid of my addiction to expensive shoes and bags and it should start by cutting up my credit cards. Samantha Jones with Carrie Bradshaw’s clothes is now my secret alter ego. I hate reality shows, I hate being micro managed at any job, I hate doing the dishes and I do not want to have kids. I love to drive with my top down on my t-top Pontiac Firebird and cannot wait to participate in the “hands on bay area” program this year. Scrapbooking has and will always be a large part of my life but I would love to get into sewing. I smoke a pack of cigarettes every two days but I would like to quit and get into better shape so I can hopefully run a 27k marathon with my mom. I am a women who is turning 28 and I am sad but at the same time happy to be almost out of this confused “quarter life” crises age of “twenty something’.
The tag pulls out and lists my current goals and some personal info to myself.