this is very touching! I had a natural delivery but he was having breathing problems too and was in the NICU for 3 days before I was able to hold him. Again no real answers. They told me in was probably bc of the elevation and air pressure in CO. We both were released after 5 days and everything has been great since. He hasnt been sick one day. Yay! This inspires me to write our experience down b4 the details slip away.
What an amazing LO! And the story to go with it is even more amazing! Thanks for sharing! Luckily both my deliveries went very well, but in the future if I do have any complications I will remember this story and have hope from it. Thank you! I love everything about your lo, especially the title and the color combination you chose!!
OMG!!! This journaling made me heartbreaking for you. I've a similar situation whit my first born too so I can feel your scarry feelings to don't know anything about the whole situation. For me my little girl was healthy but I've to going through a difficult c-section with bleed complication etc. after the c-section. With my other child I was healthy through the labour but he doesn't feel so well when he came out, he was grey and slack and have a very low apgarpoint so I was so worried for him but he fetched well after that. I agree with you that there was always someone else who had it worse but we are so busy with our own situation directly so we can not think about anything else at that time. I really LOVE your Lo and the layering is fantastic and all embellishments are so gorgeous!!!! LOVE everything in this!!!!! Thank you for let us reading about your situation! Hugs!!! /Suss
Oh man.... all that labor and still a C..... that is the absolute worst. Well, he appears to be the perfect little gentleman in your avatar and well worth all the pain. Being a mom to triplets we had a few ups and downs too, so I really appreciate this LO more than you realize.... thank you ;)
What a beautiful birth story! It makes all of the difference in the world to just have a doctor who has some confidence in their voice and can assure you things will be ok. My son was also 10 lbs, I was fortunate enough to not have to go through the tragedies you had to go through but could have so this hit home for me.
Awesome. First, I love the lo, the colors, the design and all the cool stuffs. But, I can so relate, I also had an emergency csextion after 2 days of labor! Although, I don't remember the surgery due to anesthesia. Wonderful lo, thanks for sharing your story!
Wow. That sounds like it was quite a harrowing experience! I cannot even imagine! Thank God for that children's hospital for giving you the reassurance that you needed. Glad that everything turned out well in the end and that you walked away with a healthy child and a deeper appreciation for the struggles of others. Beautiful journaling and fantastic layout!
Wow!! beautiful page, pretty to look at!! and then reading the journaling....wow, it's great that you were able to write down all your feelings about everything you went through at the birth of your child....I think all us moms have a story....and I've never thought to write down mine.....thanks for sharing!!
wow - completely moving and amazing story. My first daughter was an extremely long delivery, over 20 hours and was "stuck" so they had to use the vacuum, and they didn't tell us that she had a large open sore on the top of her head from it. We found out the next day when we took her hat off. Anyway, beautiful page and great way to remember such a moving experience.
I'M GLAD FOR YOU THAT EVERYTHING IS OKAY. YOU SCRAPPED SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PAGE. OUT OF MISERY COMES........ AH, I CAN'T REMEMBER. LOL!!! THE LO IS SO AWESOME. I LOVE ALL THE COOL THING, THE BUTTONS, FLOWERS, TRANSPARENCY, ETC. THAT YOU PUT ON HERE. I JUST LOVE IT!!!
terrific story- glad everything turned out ok. I also had to have a c-section and emergency c-section cause I had HELLP syndrome. It affected my liver and platelet count- Drew was 5 weeks early. He was wisked away and I didn't seem or hold him until 11 hrs later!. Luckily for me I was drugged up and pretty incoherent so I really didn't "miss" him that much. I was out of it. But I remember the minute that nursed put him in my arms finally- I bawled like I have never cried in my life. What an experience huh? Unforntunately I can't have nay more cause of the HELLP but that just makes me even more thankful everyday for my horse- he's 11 now and is over 5 feet tall and about 120 pounds! You'd never know he was technically a "premie"! Terrific layout!
Such a beautiful and touching layout! definitely brought a tear or two to my eyes....what a beautiful healthy baby! My first was a whopper at 10'10 and I tried hard to squeeze him out....just couldn't do it :o) ended up with a c-section too....so I know how scarey it can be....and almost unfortunately I'm a registered nurse, and know more than I wish I did....but I guess the fortunate part for me is that I understood all the medical lingo, and the questions to ask....so, they couldn't keep me in the dark....but I've always thought that in many ways, I wish I didn't know all that could have or was happening! But anyway, we have 2 beautiful healthy baby boys -Thank you God!
You have told your journey to happiness beautifully. Great LO and especially love the special embellies. (Star and Heart) TFS your LO and story. Taffie
This is beautiful! I love the journaling. My first also had to spend time in the infant ICU when she was born, and she was 3 days old before I was able to hold her again, so those feelings you describe are all too familiar. You expressed them perfectly. Your journaling is wonderful, and I am so glad he is a healthy boy now!
wow. what a beautiful layout.. and your journaling. MAN GIRL, I have been there and I know that traumatic feeling, and that fear. Thank God little Owen is okay now.. what a Godsend he is!
This is absolutely beautiful.... I am so sorry that you had to gothrough all of that... all I can say is that the end result is worth it... how is the little guy doing??? I hope that all is well. GOD BLESS!
LO describing my experience with the birth of my first child
Hidden journaling reads:
This picture will always remind me of how fortunate I am and how I have learned to really, really appreciate what I have and how lucky I am. This picture was taken after I got Owen back from the special care nursery after he was born. My face is all swollen from all the bags of Saline I was given through a 28 hour induced labour that ended with a c-section. I am exhausted, terrified and traumatized, but thankful.
Owen was a big baby, 10 lbs, and so after 28 hours of trying to get him out, with little success, I had to have a c-section. It was fast and David was sleeping while they explained the process and only woke him as we left for surgery. He was alone while I was prepped with no more information than I had to have a c-section. We were both terrified and unprepared. When he was brought in I felt some relief, but was more scared than I can explain.
The surgery went pretty well, although I had no prior knowledge, until the surgery, of the fact that you still felt pressure during the procedure. That was a very unnatural feeling. Owen was lodged very deeply into my pelvis and they had to use the assistance of a vacuum to get him out. I heard him cry and all the anxiety washed away. It wasn't a long reprieve as they ushered him away from me and to the table and could be heard talking about the gash in his head. We were able to gather that he had a gash in his skull from the vacuum and they were trying to decide on stitches or tape. All I could see from the bed was his big little foot. I was bawling like a maniac. The doctors kept telling me to stop because the needed to close me up and I was moving too much. It seemed like forever was passing with us on our separate tables. Thoughts were racing through my mind of all I had read of the importance of bonding during that first hour, of trying to feed right away, of cuddling and staring into each other's eyes. It was in my “birth plan” for goodness sake. I was devastated. More time passed and they finished up the surgery and took me into the recovery room. I still hadn't even seen his face, only his foot. They had to take him and feed him formula because his sugar level was low. I think almost two hours had past when they FINALLY brought him to me. All was forgiven. He was an angel, an absolute miracle. I held him until the nurse had to check me out. At that point, my mom held him.
She had only been holding him for a minute, when David looked at him and said “he's blue.” He had stopped breathing. The nurse came and took him and he started breathing again. He seemed fine so they let us go to our room. We had him in our room for about an hour and his breathing seemed to be getting pretty laboured, so we called the nurse. They decided to take Owen to the nursery for observation. So far this had been such an emotional rollercoaster. About an hour later the nurse came to our room with a nursery room nurse and they explained to us that Owen was being taken to the special care nursery to have some testing done and to be put in an incubator hooked up to monitors and intravenous. On one hand I was relieved that he was going to best place to go if there was a problem, but on the other, I was completely distraught at the thought of my poor baby having to go through all of that and even more at the thought of something being wrong. This was definitely not in my birth plan.
The doctor's and nurses were unable to tell us anything except that they were trying to figure it out and that it can be common for a c-section infant to have breathing problems after birth because the mucous isn't squeezed out of their lungs the way a baby who goes through the birth canal's is. Owen spent the next two days in there. I was only able to face going there a handful of times over the course. The pain of being away from my newborn baby was less than the pain of going to that place and seeing my baby like that. I've never felt such sorrow in my life. Thrown into the mix was the fact that there were sick babies and their sorrowful parents all over the place. There was a 1 ˝ lb baby there. It was very confusing being in a place like that with a 10 lb baby who was seemingly healthy. I definitely felt some shame for feeling so hard-done by. I was very thankful for David, who was able to go when I could not. He was in a very bad place for all of this too, as he had even less control and understanding of the situation than I did. I was so worried for him too.
After the two days, they just decided to release Owen back to us. I figure now that they just couldn't find anything wrong. They didn't give us much information about why he was in there, let alone why he was being released from the special care nursery. Of course this left us feeling extremely anxious. Then we were sent home. I've never felt more unfit or unprepared for such a task in my life. We were now completely responsible for this baby that had been in health crises and we didn't even know why or if he was okay now.
Anyway, that night we ended up taking him to the Children's hospital because we thought his breathing was still bad. There we met a fantastic pediatrician who assured us that his breathing was absolutely normal for a c-section baby and that it might stay that way for a few days (finally some information). She also taught me in that 10 minute meeting how to nurse Owen perfectly. She was a hero doctor. We took him home that night with a lot of relief. He has been healthy as a horse ever since.
This experience was a huge blessing for me in the long run. In that special care nursery, I learned so much about pain and suffering and how little I had known of it until that point in my life. I learned that no matter how bad you think you've got it, someone has it far worse. I also learned that this doesn't take away from my pain, but it makes me a more compassionate and thoughtful person.
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