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Design Lo was inspired by October sketch on Scrapjazz. Journaling was written last night.
Dream Hope Wish....My desire for a child and my continued desire for more children.
For what seemed to be a long time, 5 years I dreamed of how it would feel to be a mother and hold my own child. Years of low-tech fertility treatments and negative pregnancy tests. I reached out to a great IF online support group, I realized lots of women were going through infertility and feeling the same as me. Will I ever have a child? Will I be a Mom? What would my child look like? What would it feel like to be pregnant? I was able to get through all the treatments because of this group of great women. The infertility prayer list from October 27, 2000, still stays close to me everyday. It reads, “Dear Lord, I pray for all of my sisters who are experiencing one of the worst kinds of pain- infertility. You promised that when one or more are gathered together in your name you will be among them. You say in the Bible to be Fruitful and multiply - Please help us to do this. I pray that we will all be able to feel the prayers and I pray you will hear us. Please bless us all with a child Lord, I pray you will heal our wombs and fill our empty arms - I pray for-”.
My dreams for a child would come true through in-vetro fertilization on June 10, 2002 (our 7th wedding anniversary). I went early in the morning to specialist for HCG blood draw, later that afternoon we would get a call that would forever change our lives. The blood result was POSITIVE, 15dp5dt HCG 2,137. We transferred three embryos and with a high HCG number, doctor told us we could be having twins. Two weeks, later we saw one baby with a heartbeat. I loved being pregnant, it was the most amazing feeling and experience. February 10, 2003, our baby boy was born (2 weeks before my 30th birthday).
Today, I am thankful that I have a child. My heart aches for another child, I have guilt for wanting another one. We choose not to go back to specialist, instead hoped for a miracle the “free way”. Really not sure if I wanted to go through the emotional and financial part of fertility treatments again. When our son was two and half years old, I became pregnant on my own, but would end in a miscarriage. With that pregnancy came a sense of new hope,,, once again it would be two and half years later before I would become pregnant again. I never thought I would have two miscarriage, what are the odds. I really thought this pregnancy was meant to be, I saw the sac doctor gave me a due date of December 26, 2008. We would have a Christmas baby. I didn’t care if I was in the hospital over Christmas, just the thought of having another children. It was the most awesome feeling. At 9 weeks, I would lose the baby...so crushed. What would it feel like to have another child? Will I be able to have another? Why did I have another miscarriage? Its so hard when something does not come easy. Why? I don’t know why I continue to struggle with this. I know I have a desire for more children. What are Gods plan for our family. Is our family complete now? Because it doesn’t feel like it should be.
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