my how fitting this mini is for my life right now... here goes...
We are a week and a half out from the due date of our baby. Our caseworker told us to give it two weeks before we gave up begin having closure and grieving.. Needless to say the past two weeks have been very hard, there is nothing that can compare with being in a completely blind wait to find out if you have lost a child. While we still have not heard anything new from the agency, I have given up hope.
The only thing that gives me the power to carry on is the Lord. He is faithful even in the midst of this heartache and trial He is %100 faithful. I don't know or understand His plan with all of this, but I do know that He is my comforter in my heartache. I know that He is using this for His own glory which has been my prayer from the very beginning.
My heart is breaking, yet I know He will mend it. So, the power to carry on comes from clinging to the Lord.
just had to add this song by Ginny Owens
The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone
ya oh oh no
So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering that Your love put You through
And I walk through the darkness If You want me to
cause When I cross over Jordan, I'm gonna sing, gonna shout
Gonna look into your eyes and see you never let me down
So take me on the pathway that leads me home to you
And I will walk through the valley if you want me to
Yes, I will walk through the valley if you want me to