i will keep up with postive with my low self esteem. i always been falling down on the wagon and i always find something to give me something to postive and ever go back on wagon. i want to make myself being stronger and more postive with willpower with my better attituide with better mental postive and want to learn how to overcome with hegative thought and want to find something to give me better life and how to overcome with my depression and rejection and how to love myself again and i know i will be strong and know how to cope with my insecurites and knowhow to deal with losing friend who isnt my real friends and want to know how to get my feet on right grounds and have a willpower with my true feelings and my own honest way with true life. i want to proud of me who i am and true to myself without depend from other people and end up hurting and get more insecurites and falling down on bad wagon. i want to learn to depend on myself again. i belive that i will found the trails back and will find myself with postive life and with better mental and emotions and find right friend who will be there for me and support me and have a faith in me and not judged me and not coward to me and not being so mean to me. i want to find a friends who love for who i am and willing to be my true friends and will not blinded me again... i will not give up with my dream to find a trails back of my postive..