This is a part of a book of poetry that I have written and I have decided to scrap the pages with the poetry. Poem reads:
I WAGE A COMPLICATED WAR WITHIN MY MIND,
EVERY DAY, EVERY MOMENT...
NOT A SINGLE BREATH
IS WITHOUT ANGUISH.
THERE IS NO ESCAPING MY OBVIOUS IMPERFECTION. I BATTLED ENDLESSLY
THIS DEMON CALLED "OBESITY".
NOW STANDING AT THE EDGE OF A SUPREME SACRIFICE,
BUTCHERED BODY, SUTURED SOUL,
I WEEP FOR THE WOMAN WITHIN THAT NO ONE WOULD SEE...
BUT I ALWAYS KNEW WAS THERE.
ROBBIN C WOOD JAN. 2001
I wrote this the day before my Gastric Bypass surgery...which was the beginning of a two year nightmare that wouldn't stop. I lost 175 pounds, but 5 years post op...I have regained almost all of it back. As soon as I quit vomitting every single meal, the weight came right back on.
Life Lesson learned: The people who really love you, love you no matter what..and the people that are cruel to someone when they are overweight, will find something else nasty to say to you when you lose it.