sahm (PUB Journaling Challenge Week 7)

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sahm (PUB Journaling Challenge Week 7)

Here's my long and whiney journaling:OK, I need to vent. No pictures or cute little do-dads for this page, just me talking myself through something. Lately I’m having this overwhelming feeling that I need to quit my job and be a stay at home mom. Is this nuts? I only have 1 kid and she’s started first grade. This is the time when women usually go back to work, not when they quit! I’m just feeling so overwhelmed right now. My office is crazy busy, and its only going to get worse before it gets better. Our house is a total disaster, such a mess. Every single room looks like a bomb went off. If someone walked in here right now they’d think I was a total slob. We never seem to have any food in the refrigerator, and I never know what to make for dinner. And whats really pushing me over the edge is Mary Rose’s new school. First of all its a catholic school which means inservice days and holy days just about every other week that I have to take off work for. Second, it seems that most of the girl’s moms don’t work. They are heavy into the Parents Guild and volunteering in the lunchroom and library. I just can’t do that stuff. For the first time Mary Rose is asking me questions like “Why do I have to do extended day? Why can’t I get picked up in the car line?” Good question. Why can’t you? I fantasize about what my days would be like. I’d go to the gym every day (can we afford a gym membership if I’m not working? I haven’t thought that far ahead yet). I know I could spend a good 3 months cleaning out closets and getting rid of clutter. I’d scrub every corner of my house with a toothbrush. I’d cook, and sew, and organize John’s home office, and and and…big sigh! I can dream, can’t I?