Safe in the Arms of God (miscarriages)

Cheers

This is so beautiful. I am so sorry for your 4 losses. I have lost 2. Thank you for having the courage to share this very difficult experience.

August 23, 2014

Safe in the Arms of God (miscarriages)

I decided it was time to use the ultrasound pictures from our fourth baby and our fourth miscarriage. The journaling was cathartic and is hidden behind the large photo. It is long, detailed and very personal so I will just summarize it here.I was pregnant four Mays in a row, and we lost each baby in the summer. The first two at six weeks, the third at eight and the last at twelve weeks. Because I had lost the first three, our new OBGYN started me on a regimen and lots of ultrasounds. I heard this baby's heart beat during each of the ultrasounds on the layout. This miscarriage came on suddenly two days before my twelve week appointment. I knew something was wrong the night before and my husband called the doctor and took me in early the next morning. I lost the baby in the office before we got to see the doctor. It was amazing to see how very tiny this baby was and yet to know that I had heard it's little heart beating just weeks before. I can't even fathom how very tiny it's little heart had been. Of course our hearts were broken. It is devastating to prepare for parenthood four times and never to be a parent. For whatever reason, the Lord chose to call all of our babies home before we could ever hold them. Despite our sorrow, we clung to the knowledge that God has a purpose in everything and that although our children's lives were incredibly brief, that He would use it for good. We found the book by our pastor entitled, “Safe in the Arms of God,” to be so comforting. In the midst of our grief we were able to take comfort in knowing that we will one day be reunited with our children in Heaven and that until then, they rest safely in the arms of God.This story isn't over though. Our doctor wants us to try again, and we will….hopefully there will be a baby announcement posted here someday!