Definition : noun, Informal.
a carefree, comfortable, and thoroughly enjoyable way of living:
This afternoon, Riley climbed up onto the couch with me. I think he realized that I was not my best self - I've been down with an old back injury all day. He just curled up around me, put his head in my lap, and went to sleep. It was comforting, and it made me think... you know, birds of the air, lilies of the field, adding one inch to my height ... that sort of thing.
I'm horribly OCD and I have a tendency to take control of things that I really don't need - and most times don't even want - to. I'm compulsively early to everything. I can't stand to be late and when I feel like I'm going to BE late, I get horribly upset, sometimes to the point of making myself sick ... I say yes when I really want to say no. I volunteer to help out and frequently double book myself into impossible deadlines just because I have this compulsive need to be helpful. I'm horrible at delegating, and when I'm in a group, I have a natural tendency to just take charge of the leadership of it. I'm goal oriented, and leaving a project unfinished is just not something I'm capable of doing. Add that all up with my perfectionist tendencies - well, it's just a recipe for stress overload, even in a life that centers around being retired. I mean, there's only so many times you can clean out and reorganize the closets, right? After less than a year, I went back to work part time, just because a life of living idle isn't part of my busy nature.
You'd think with three heart surgeries in the last year, that I'd have made the connection - that stress is BAD for me. That I should just slow down and enjoy the scenery. Well, let's just say I'm a slow learner.
Today, my old dog showed me something really important - that you can't smell the roses when you're speeding down the highway. And if you're moving as fast as I do, you can't even SEE the roses. And you know what? I'm tired of missing the view.
So for 2018, I'm going to take a page from my dog's book of life philosophy, slow down, and learn to just be more chill. Or at least I'm going to give it my best OCD effort.