This page describes our first doctor's appointment since becoming pregnant with our second child, the debate on whether or not to move back to New Jersey or stay in Arizona, and the "I love you baby!" story. The journaling reads:
Our First Doctor's Appointment
We had our first doctor's appointment July 19, 2004 at 12:30 pm with Dr. Eckel. He was great as usual. Dr. Eckel determined I was 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant and Aiden's due date would be March 21, 2005. We were ecstatic; Kaitlyn was going to become a big sister just after her 3rd birthday. Everything couldn't be more perfect, our children were going to be almost 3 years apart in age, exactly what we had always wanted.
The day after our first appointment I began writing in a journal for the new baby growing inside me. I wanted to keep track of statistics from my doctor's appointments and any thoughts or questions I had during the pregnancy so that when this baby grew up I would give it to him or her as a keepsake. I didn't keep up with it very well and now I'm kicking myself for it.
New Jersey vs. Arizona
The first major obstacle Jay and I faced was determining to stay in Arizona or try to move back east before Aiden's birth. I knew almost instantly that we needed to stay, for the safety of the baby. At the time I was unable to tell Jay my feelings about this due to the fact that I was scared of his reaction, so I wrote a letter. After a few days of not having the opportunity to talk to each other about the letter, when we did, you know what hit the fan. We argued for a while and then I convinced Jay that us moving was not the best thing to do while I was pregnant. So we agreed that we would wait until after my 3 month maternity leave from work to move. I would be out of work from March until the end of May and then move back east just before it got too hot in Arizona. The idea was perfect.
“I Love You, Baby”
A few days after this decision to stay in Arizona until after Aiden's birth Kaitlyn did something that was totally unexpected and truly amazing. July 28, 2004 after shopping and a late lunch, while I was sitting in my rocking chair, Kaitlyn came over to me, rubbed my belly and said, “I love you baby.” I was in awe. I could not believe what this sweet and innocent little girl had just done. I wanted to cry but I didn't want Kaitlyn to think she had upset me so I held back my tears. She continued to do this a couple more times that day and then I rocked her to sleep for her afternoon nap. Every day thereafter this is how Kaitlyn would wake me up in the morning. Usually she would give me a kiss, and then she would lean over, hug and kiss my belly and say, “I love you, baby.”