I haven't read the journaling just yet, I started to tear up at the thought but I LOVE this idea. I have one US pic from my MC and I REALLY want to scrap it. I promise to come back and read later. (hugs)
Beautiful page. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I had had enough of my mind when this happened to me to ask for a picture. You are very strong and I applaud you for scrapping this angel baby. (((hugs)))
I don't know how I came across this, but I am so glad that I did. My husband and I just lost our first baby a very short time ago. The story that you told here was exactly what we went through, but I still haven't been able to talk about the details. I had never been pregnant before and we weren't trying, but the hurt doesn't feel any less. I am so sorry for your loss and I just keep on thinking something that one of my amazing friends told me... one day when you get to heaven you will finally get to meet your angel. Some babies just aren't meant to be in this world and just go straight to be with Jesus. I know it doesn't make it better in your heart, at least it doesn't for me, but deep down... I think it's right.
WOW I LOVE THIS LO....This is exactly what happened to me except mine happened this year. The way you have your story is exactly the way mine played out as well. I'm sorry for you loss but thanks for the inspiration on how to scrap my baby! BTW my husband thinks I'm crazy for wanting to scrap this also.
What an AMAZINGLY touching and super helpful way to heal! It's 20 minutes later and I've just finished sobbing.... having recently lost one of my "babies" too, I am still very much on the mend. The BIG difference - your child a 9 wk human; mine, a 10 yr. old furry canine. Hubby & I decided a long, long, time ago this was to be our choice for children. I miss her so much every day; it seems to possibly have finally begun to feel a bit better. I do hate, however, that I am beginning to forget some of those 'little things' - even though I know that's part of the process :(. I truly hope, when that time comes to "Cross the 'Rainbow Bridge'" and romp thru a field with her, it will feel as though I had done that w/ her every other day of our lives {actually impossible due to my physical limitations}. Rest in Peace Wiggle-Butt, We L♥ve & Miss You VERY Much,Willow!
BTW - PEI Girl, I am SO sorry for the loss of 'Your Angel Baby' and thanks SO MUCH for helping me to grieve & truthfully begin to get past the loss of mine! Already, I've a mixed media piece in mind; it'll be called [ssshh it's a secret] ;)
I am sorry for your lost. I know what it is like to lose a baby. But the difference between us, was that I didn't know I was pregnant until the doctor told me that I lost the baby. i admire that you had the courage to scrap your little one. I am not ready to scrap my lost yet. I don't think that I will ever be ready. God bless you and your family.
I am so sorry for your loss, my sister went through the same thing, and it was so tough at the time, but with the help of family and friends we have all moved on. Love your page, love all the hearts...it's really just beautiful!
Wow. That was a powerful page. I just wanted to let you know I went through almost the exact same thing this past summer. It's really painful and challenging to move on from. Kudos to you for having the courage to get up and go to work the next week, and to scrap this. It's important I think to scrap your LIFE, and not just the highlights. Take care!
This page is SOOO amazing. Love the hearts traced in black. And the title is SO special. I am in tears as I am reading your journaling. I am so sorry for your loss.
I can't even begin to express how sorry I am for you and your family's loss... It is just so heartbreaking...
Your Mother's Love shines thru in this gorgeous tribute to your little one. TFS
oh my gosh what a heartbreaking story, but you have captured the love for that little one beautifully on this incredible page- I am so touched by your journaling ( ok, I am sobbing. .) may you be blessed with a healthy baby and I am so moved by your strength. AMAZING LAYOUT!!!
Thank you so much for sharing this - the layout is lovely. Your story sums up so much of what I am going thru right now. I found out that I was pregnant with our first in September of this year and I miscarried on October 30th. My ultrasound tech told me that I wouldn't want a picture of "a dead baby." Your layout reminds me that it is indeed healthy to commemorate this experience and that this one will always be in my heart.
I am sorry for your loss...I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like. However, I think you did a wonderful thing by creating this lo. It is a beautiful tribute and a wonderful way to remember your little one. I think your very brave and I applaud your courage.
Wow, reading that was almost like re-living my 4 losses - but I am blessed to have 1 healthy child. I love the way you put the page together and told your story. I often wondered what to do with ultrasounds, you have inspired me with this beautiful LO.
This is so beautiful, and emotional--it brought tears to me eyes. The fact that you were able to verbalize your experience and symbolize it so beautifully will hopefully aid your healing and memories.
Oh Sweetie! This is a very touching LO! I had the same thing happen to me X 2...so I know exactly what your going thru! Just stay positive :) I love the hearts! It's a Gorgeous LO! XXOOXX
I am still crying over this LO! You are a very strong woman for attempting this page, I can not imagine how horrible that experience was for you, I am glad that you are coming to terms and that you were able to share this with us. God Bless you xxx
I am so sorry! I can't even imagine the pain. I have never gone through such an experience. I used to work on the mother/infant floor in the hospital and it always broke my heart when I had to put a yellow rose on the door. What a beautiful memorial to your precious one. I believe scrapping it is a first step towards healing, as you recognize that it did happen. Once recognition occurs, you can begin to heal. You are not crazy...it is your way of grieving. God bless you! My Prayers are with you and your family.
this is absolutely beautiful. great job on the journaling...i can only imagine how difficult just writing that all down was for you. the lo is great. i love the colors you chose...all the doodling...the title...the hearts..and the ribbon and brads. you did a great job on this.
Losing a baby is so hard. I think it is great you scrapped it. Reading your words made me remember pain we felt when this happened to us. However, we now have a healthy 3.5 yr old. Time does heal, but you never forget. Your lo is beautiful and very touching. I wish you the best if you continue to try again.
I can feel your pain, I am crying hard as I read this. I lost our third when I was 4 1/2 months along, it gets easier but you will never forget the little excitement knowing that you had developed that brief relationship, then the sad emptiness. I still get sad frequently but scrapbooking my loss did make me feel better, since I was now including our little angel in our family album. Just knowing that our little one is in heaven watching us makes me feel better. beautiful layout.
This is a layout about my last pregnancy which ended in a miscarriage at three months. My husband thought I was insane to scrap it but I really wanted to preserve what little I had from that pregnancy, which was this ultrasound picture and my memories. It took me a while before I felt ready to tackle this... When I first started it, I cried and cried but as I went along, it just felt really good to be completing this... I feel like it was an important part of the healing process for me. The title is I carry your heart with me.... I carry it in my heart. The hearts are cut from the George cartridge on the on the Cricut and then I used my black zig to draw along the edges to make them pop. I also doodled some hearts on the page. The words are printed on pattern paper and cut and then traced with zig pen. These colours were a first for me... I didn't like them at first but they quickly grew on me. The ultra sound picture is mounted on mat stacks chipboard and is hinged...it flips up and underneath the hidden journaling reads:
September 1, 2006: We were so excited to learn that we were pregnant again!!!! A second child, a baby sister or brother for Larissa. We wasted no time telling everyone we know. Due date: May 11, 2007!
My pregnancy was going perfectly! No morning sickness. I felt a little tired but nothing that I couldn’t cope with. We started reading through the baby name books again....couldn’t agree on a name...no surprises there. We started planning how we were going to change Larissa’s room around to fit another baby in. At my doctor’s appointment in mid October everything looked good except they couldn’t find a heartbeat.... “it’s still early...we’ll catch it next visit” they told me.... I hoped they were right. That happened during my pregnancy with Larissa so I didn’t worry too much.
October 26, 2007 (3 months along): some very light bleeding... well I suppose I could go to the hospital and have it checked out...I’m sure it’s nothing. It happened a few times during my pregnancy with Larissa but just to be on the safe side I’ll go in. The hospital was packed and Larissa was tired and hungry. I called Jason. I could hear the concern in his voice but I told him not worry... just a precautionary measure. He came and met us at the hospital. They got me in right away and started asking questions. They took a blood test and used a portable ultrasound machine. “well, this machine is a really cheap portable thing...we can’t really tell much with this... we can see the baby’s sac but we can’t see a heartbeat. Don’t worry, we’ll hook you up to the big machine in the morning...it’s much more accurate” meanwhile, I’m still not that nervous...believing that since I’m still early along perhaps this little machine can’t see much. I do have to wait for a whin-rho shot, due my A negative blood. Meanwhile the blood work comes back with my HCG levels. The doctor started asking me questions about how far along I was....the alarm bells start to go off when I tell him I am ‘SURE’ on the dates and he seems to think I must be wrong. Then I ask the bloodwork number. Of course it means nothing to mean with no reference, so I store it away in my memory so I can look it up on the internet later. We are told to come back in the morning for a proper ultrasound. As we left the hospital, I had a heavy heart and a bad feeling. Jason felt optimistic and didn’t feel like I did at all so we don’t really talk much on the way home. As soon as I got home I read about HCG levels on the internet and what level I should be at for 3 months along. The news was not good... I cried myself to sleep.
October 27, 2007: I went about my morning methodically. Jason wasn’t even going to come to the ultrasound with me...he assumed it would all be routine and all was well. I insisted. I went to the hospital and they told me it was going to be a few hours so I went to work. It was only my 5th day at a brand new job so I didn’t want to miss much time. I had an ultra sound around 11 that morning. Jason was there with me. When the technician turned the screen away from us I knew something was wrong. I knew that when there is a healthy baby they show it to you right away to ease your anxiety. The technician left to go get the doctor. I knew what was happening. The doctor came in and looked at the screen and whispered with the technician. They both asked if I was sure about my dates. Then it came...the punch in the gut when the doctor took my hand and said in a kind voice “There is no easy way to say this. There is no heat beat. Your baby has died. The baby should be measuring 12 weeks and is measuring 9 weeks. I am so sorry but you have lost the baby’ It was kind of a blur after that... I started sobbing and Jason held my hand tight. I was barely able to ask the technician for an ultra sound picture through my sobs. We were asked to return to the emergency department to see the doctors there. As we left the room, Jason was very somber and I was uncontrollably sobbing. I felt terrible for all the pregnant mothers who were waiting for their ultrasounds for having to see us go by for they surely knew what was happening. When we were back at emergency we saw 3 doctors and talked about the option of going home and waiting for the miscarriage to start on its own or an immediate D&C. I wanted everything to be over with a quickly as possible so I was prepped for surgery right away. I was able to go home that evening. I spent most of the weekend in bed. I couldn’t even talk to anyone about it. When the phone rang we didn’t answer. Our hearts were broken. This kind of thing just doesn’t happen to us. Monday morning came and I had to get up and return to work as usual. Getting out of bed and returning to normal activities was very helpful for me.
June 25, 2007: My heart is healing and someday we’ll go on to have another baby but there will always be a special little place in my heart for the baby I didn’t get to meet here on earth.
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