No person should have to go through what your ex husband put you through. You are a strong woman and from the looks, havetalent!! Keep rockin' it!! TFS
What a heart breaking story. I'm so sorry you lost your baby. But I do believe the ones we lose stay with us somehow. I remember my husbands clergyman sending me a card that said one day I would meet my little ones in heaven. At the time it wasn't comforting but now I look forward to it. Great LO
What a heart wrenching story. I'm sure that there are things that you'd don't want to remember about the experience...but you can't deny that it's a part of you. I hope you find comfort in what the psychic had to say. Have faith...you'll meet your little Angel someday.
wow what a story, and sorry you had to go through that. I have server infertility issues which is a nice way of saying I will never have the chance to give birth. I know how hard that feeling is, but I could no wrap my thoughts around loosing a child u had carried for that long.
wow this is one of the most amazing pages I think I have ever seen - your story is so moving and amazing!!! The LO looks fantastic as well!!!! adding to my faves!
Beautiful page, and it is hard losing one like that, I know. Although I don't really consider myself "religious" I do believe in guardian spirits...and I think maybe I would be comforted.
WOW! The same thing happened to my sister-in-law. She lost her baby girl at birth and went on to have a wonderful little boy. Her son often talks to "a little girl" and sees her - this was before his mother told him about his sister. Congrats to you on being able to scrap this and opening up to us by sharing with us. I am really sorry for your loss and I hope doing this lo helped you if even a little bit.
I love EVERYTHING about this layout...just everything. The journaling is so cool....the black and white photo really captures the emotion of how you're feeling. Amazing...simply amazing
Your journaling is so poignant and sweet. Yes, there are angels among us...I hope this layout helps to heal your heart. I've scrapped several "difficult" topics and I find that it really helps me. Big {{{{Hugs}}}} to you! Beautiful layout! The journaling is EXCEPTIONAL!
Kristie your story brought tears to my eyes... I couldn't imagine what you have gone through, but I believe angels do exist and you have a beautiful angel watching over you! What a wonderful lo, and I admire you for the courage you have to scrapbook it!
I do believe the ones we love stay with us after they pass. I'm sure your little angel girl is watching over you and your family. Your story is so sad, yet full of hope. And your page is awesome, as usual. Take good care!
Kristie, I am absolutely speechless, not often happening, but I am. I am glad you were able to put into words something like this because your story will touch many others. God bless, Deborah
I am so sorry for the loss I know what it feels like too..I was alone when it happened to my parents were on vacation..I will have to make a lo to tell the story..Your LO is so wonderful..Thanks for giving me the courage to do my own LO...
ohh kristie, i got all teared up reading your journaling! that is so sad, your ex sounds awful, and im really sorry about your miscarriage. I can imagine how painful it was for you go to through. i got chills when i read what the paranormal medium said! I would think of it as a good thing. Although your little girl isn't with you, sounds like she is with you in spirit and she loves you. :)
Oh Kristie....how sad.....I had 3 miscarriages too and I know how you feel!!!
My lack of English is making me feel very angry for not being able to describe what I want to say. Yesterday I wrote in Spanish about the same issue to Ticabaum....Anyway, this is a fabulous LO!!!
Oh my..... this is quite the lo! awesome journaling. I've had 3 miscarriages! 3 invetro attempts, and waiting on the adoption list since 1995 for a newborn. I wasn't able to carry a child, my hubby and I have a wonderful life with our fur babies, and I guess that it was meant to be? Don't dwell on what you don't have, look into your sons eyes and be thankful that you have him and all that he is.... love. I sure hope that you aren't with that guy any more! TFS Lee
I am so sorry for your loss! It sounds like there is an angel with you. I experienced an miscarriage at 10 weeks when I was 20 . My husband didn't want more kids, we already had two, so we never had any more of our own. But years later, out of nowhere we saw three little girls on TV that needed a home. We knew almost immediately that we were supposed to adopt tham. If we had had that child, we probably would not have been able to provide a home to three little sisters that needed one. They are my wonderful teenagers now! I believe everything happens for a reason. It took almost 20 years to figure out what that reason was but now I know. Beautiful lo and journaling! God bless you!!!!!
OMGOSH, Kristie...this is so sad...glad I had the kleenex box right near me. I'm with you, Nich is my one and only due to medical reasons, as well. Guess we just need to cherish our wonderful boys all the more. Gorgeous layout...love how you used the Reminisce paper!!!
I don't even know what to say (wiping tears away). I lost my first baby at 3 months but was blessed to have two children. Angels are among us..that I do believe. Great LO and awesome journaling.
Wow, wonderful journaling Kristie. I definitely feel your pain. I too suffered 2 bad miscarriages and have often wished that I knew what they were and what they would be like. I too have wished that I could be pregnant again, but that is impossible as I had a hysterectomy 5 years ago, at the age of 33. I wanted another baby very badly, but it wasn't possible.
Wow, what powerful journaling! I'm sending you my warmest hugs!!! I also have a little angel in heaven, but I don't know if it is a boy or a girl. I do feel that our loved ones are with us though.
'They' say we choose are parents Kristie....and she does not want you to forget her....as hard as it might be for you....acknowledge her love ...it may help ...hugs to you :)
What a wonderful lo and heart-felt journalling. I am sure you can cope asd you coped the first time around, and you and Bryce can move on together in love.
Whew, so many things to say - yes Mike was a complete a s s, but without him you would have never experienced something that was meant to happen. You were meant to have this little guardian angel to watch over you. I honestly believe that, and appreciate you sharing that part of yourself with us. {{hug}}
OMG! What a !@#$@ jerk your ex was! Glad you made him an ex - good for you! And leave it to you to take such a sensitive subject and turn it into something so amazing - you're awesome!
OMG Kristie, OMG. What a horrible thing to happen (and what a jerk your ex was), but, as always, your work rocks! You're just such an upbeat person...I think we could learn a lot from you. :)
My Motto: "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger"Yeah. You rocked it out Killa. Look at YOU making a super funky think on such a sensitive topic.
You know how much I am in awe of your ((A))ngel. I think THAT is why you have so much Mad Talent in everything you do- for sure.
I am glad you did this challenge. SO many of us have stories to tell--- and scrapping them is an excellent release.
Props. Huge Props Killa.
xox LL
Okay, this was a wonderful challenge and it came at a time when I needed scrap therapy!! And, leave it to me to make such a bold, bright lo about such a wretched topic!! The journaling is attached to the "Here's the Story" tag.....it says:
Sometimes, I dream that I am pregnant. The dream begins like this: I am sitting in a doctor's office, and he says to me, "Are you excited!?" I look at him very quizzically, and say, "Why would I be?" He says "Congratulations, you are pregnant." Then, I feel the baby move. The dream is so lifelike, and it feels exactly like a child quickening in my womb. But then I wake up, usually in tears, to realize, "It was a dream". I'll never have another child. A hysterectomy at twenty four years old has made this impossible. The dream happens often after I have been thinking about this:
On April 16, 1999, I was almost five months pregnant. I woke up to horrible cramps. My husband at the time, Mike, was getting ready to go to work. Being the wonderful man he was, he decided to go on to work in our only vehicle and leave me home alone. He said, "You're fine" as he slammed the door to leave, adn "We can't afford a trip to the hospital, so don't overeact." He didn't want me to be pregnant in the first place, adn he acted as though the child had been conceived without his help. I had only turned nineteen years old two months before, and I had not told anyone in the family about my pregnancy except my mother and grandmother.
So, I alternated between lying on the couch, and running to the bathroom. It wasn't long before I started to pass enormous clots. I went back to the couch, and I was almost asleep when a huge vice-like cramp gripped me, then the "urge" to push. It was the baby. I called my mother, who came to me.
After she recovered, we went to the emergency room. The doctors said that it was a complete miscarriage, and called my husband at work. He came to the emergency room, and the doctor's immediately insisted that he return home to get the fetus. So, he left on this errand. Instead of retrieving it and rushing back to the hospital, being the classy guy that he was, he stopped at a party to show it to his sister!!!!!
He arrived back at the ER about three hours later. The doctor told me that it was a "complete evacuation" in his clinical voice, and said that they would send it to pathology.
About two weeks later, I received a report from the Pathology department. The fetus was a girl.
I have often thought about her, and what she would have been like. Would she have looked like me? Or, would she have looked like Bryce? Would she have been short like me, with my dark eyes and hair? When I am painting, I often imagine her, and whether or not I can capture her would-be features in oil. This was a heartbreaking experience, and it has began to keep me up nights due to something that has happened to remind me of her:
About a month ago, I took some photos of Bryce at my grandmothers. In the photo, there was an odd cloudy mist that was "hugging" him. Then, the next week, I took a photo of him on the couch with Mark at my house (He said, he said layout....I covered the "orbs" with the word HILARIOUS). There were strange, glowing "orbs" in the photo around Bryce. I didn't know what it was!!! So, I emailed the photos to a paranormal medium. She sent this email to me:
" Hi Kristie ,, I've been looking again at the orbs .. wow do you have some beautiful people around you ! .. I see a wonderful Angel also .. the little girl I feel belongs to you ,, did you ever lose a child .. miscarriage ,, she is a beautiful little thing ,, dark hair ,, and she sings .. I love her .. the spirit that is like a shadow around your son is full of love .. I feel you are very lucky to have experienced this ,, please keep going ,, you have a gift ,, and I have to tell you .. bad spirits have no power to harm you unless you give it to them ,,, by way of your fear ... so please never be afraid and if you can help others with the little knowledge I have given you ,, then I would be so grateful .. blessings Elizabeth "
Okay, it is a scientifically proven fact that certain people have a "sixth sense". I never met this woman, never mentioned miscarriage to her, or mentioned what I look like. Was she guessing, hoping that it might hit home with me? If so, I think it is cruel. If not, I'll let you wonder.....but it has brought everything that I have tried to forget back.
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