Ray of Light (darkness descended) - Right - Project Idea

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Keep trying Lynette! It will happen for you and Serena!! ((big hugs))

September 11, 2006

Ray of Light (darkness descended) - Right

This was a tough second page. I lost the baby, and this is the journaling to go with the first page.

After 2 unsuccessful tries of getting pregnant via artificial insemination, Dr. Lederer recommended IVF ( invitro fertilization ). In July 2006, I started the hormone therapy for it, and on August 1st I had 15 eggs retrieved. Of those, 7 were fertilized. On August 6th, 2 of the embryos were transferred back into me. The ultrasound picture shows both embryos at the point of transfer. It was so incredible to see those two little “Rays of Light” on the screen. This was the beginning of our family! 10 days later we found out that I was pregnant! Serena and I were so very excited! All of our friends and family know that we are going through this, so everyone wanted to know how things are going. We were so happy to be able to tell them that we’re pregnant. On August 22nd, I got very sick and started spotting heavily. After speaking with the doctor we had to “wait and see.” I went for another blood test and my hormone levels were continuing to rise, so we were very happy. We went for our first ultrasound on September 1st. After using 2 different ultrasound machines and having 2 technicians look at everything, we got the news that nothing could be found in my uterus but there was something in my left fallopian tube. They could not give us a firm diagnosis because the doctor was not there. We had to wait until Tuesday, September 5th to have a second ultrasound and meet with Dr. Lederer. He confirmed that the pregnancy, although extremely rare in IVF treatments, was indeed ectopic. The good news was that my body was taking care of this on it’s own and the pregnancy was dissolving. This means that I didn’t need surgery or medication to help with the process. The bad news is that we’ve lost this baby and have to go through another round of IVF. None of the embryos made it to the freezing stage for storage, so I need to have more eggs retrieved. We are devastated but hopeful. I’m trying to remain level-headed about this and know that nature is taking its course with my body. Not all pregnancies make it to birth. This was a terrible misfortune, but we are not giving up and will continue to try. We both really want to have a baby, to grow our family. We keep praying that God will help us make our dreams come true.